Minggu, 14 Januari 2018

and i'm scared but you just gotta walk through, right? no matter what happens, as long as you believe in it, it's going to be great. like, super great, like, one-of-a-kind great, one-in-a-lifetime great. the kind of great that can't be born from anything else. just walk. just, walk, take a step. it's gonna be great. walk, walk, walk, walk, walk.

and don't ever compare your life to another's. because you're different than him or her. do what you think is right. your life is yours and yours only. you can do this. take a step, just take a step.

Jumat, 12 Januari 2018

s e a r c h i n g

it's an unwinding,
unforgiving,
road.

all the signs are written in yellow,
the asphalts are just like your blood
they're in red.

you're walking 
barefoot,
stumbling upon stones and faith,
burning your feet as well as your heart.

albeit black is onto you,
it's not a tunnel.

it's an unwinding,
unforgiving,
road.

Minggu, 31 Desember 2017

instead of telling me how to dress or how skinny/fat i should be, tell me how to be a decent human, tell me how to be useful to the society.

i'm not buying into that "my looks should appeal to men in order to get married" shits. i don't care. i'm wearing my sweater to wherever i please, i'm not going to wear jewelries in order to impress some boy i don't even care. i'll doll up for me to look good in front of the mirror, to gain myself some confidence, whenever i please.

what good will it come? marriage? pfft. so these days i should pretend to be someone else to bear some man's sons and daughters? um, excuse you. i won't ever let someone sees me for something i'm not. let me love myself goddammit. relationship/future marriage status don't define me.

don't ever again tell me to starve myself at night, to bleach myself, to wear certain clothes i don't like, to not wear something bcs it's making me look fat, to tell me i don't matter because i'm not pretty. beauty isn't the price a woman must have to exist in this world, so suck up.

DO tell me how to focus on my goal, tell me how to get over anxiety, tell me how to work hard, tell me how to love other people as well as myself, tell me how to be brave, tell me how to be vocal. criticize my way of thinking, share opinions with me, look at me as your partner and not your """woman""".

i'm not ever going to be someone else to be "somebody's woman". not now, not ever.

i'm gonna be myself, for myself, and my own belief.

Kamis, 28 Desember 2017

tidak mendadak, tidak dengan tiba-tiba
puisi itu memulai dirinya sendiri
memahat rimanya dengan lihai
menyirat nada yang kau pun tidak ingin akui indahnya

sedetik;

cepat, terburu-buru, tidak ada yang tahu
baitnya hanya perlahan memendek
lalu menghilang
dan diam

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katanya, 
terkadang
kalimat yang tidak diberi huruf kapital pada awalnya,
kalimat yang tidak bertitik pada akhirnya,
membawa lebih banyak kesengsaraan, bukan?